Gud Girl

Heyy . Erm . I Misx My Home :(

Mama , Pa . I misx you both so muchhh . Ain , Didi , Lia , Ely , Baby . Misx you all too :(

To my love at home .

Ma , Pa . Hari ne Kaknong rindu btul sma kmu d ruma . Sedih btul . Rsa cm namaw tggal asrma lae . Lae sdih , klw d ruma . . Stiap kli balik , msty gaduh kn ? Bole ka kta nda pyah gaduh lae ? Penat swa Kaknong gaduh , Ma, Pa, Adik2 Kaknong . 

I'm the first born . I hv my responsibilities to my family . But why can't I just do it ? 

I now, LIVE at SMESH . Gosh .

Ma, Pa . I wanna make you proud and happy . I want you to smile watching me grow up to be a successful daughter of yours . I don't want you to cry watching me grow up to be a damn spoiled animal . You can give me EVERYTHING I want . But you always tell me you can't and you APOLOGIZES to me for that . WHY Pa ? I know . Because you want me to be independent and move on alone .

Because someday you might go and leave me ALONE .

Because one day GOD may take you away from me . . 

Because NOTHING last forever .

Because you LOVE me .

I'm sorry. . . . . 

I do bad things to you . I do not deserve you both as my parents . I'm grateful enough I was born . You sacrifice everything for us .

And I am grateful ALLAH still let me breathe .

I can still make you happy :)

I can still CHANGE . 

I want to be a GOOD GIRL .

I want to study and make you proud .

I don't want to care about other people's opinion about me .

I will never bring shame to you . 

I'll take care of myself, my sisters, and YOU BOTH .

I'll make you happy :) I Promise .

Ma, I understand you A-Z . And I love you for being different than other moms . You are my mother and I love you for that . 

I have the BEST Ma I could have . 

I Miss Home :'(

At school ,

I will LEARN . Learn to make you proud .

Learn to stay out of trouble .

Learn to be a GOOD GIRL .

Ma, Pa . Thank you . ILY ! 143 :DD